My ex, because of a prior partner abusing her sexually never let me go down or eat her out.

Over the six years we were together, I missed doing it, but learned that I could still help her orgasm with my hands by touching, fingering, and sucking her breasts

She could squirt when properly stimulated, and I loved tasting her off my hands and cumming inside her after an intense gush. The rhythm, and as she called it sparks when we were in sync, were amazing

I became more attentive and listened to her and her body.

I hope to find someone who enjoys being taken care of orally in the future.